Apparently I am an emotional person….some may say too emotional. Apparently emotions are something one should not have too much of! I wonder how a person goes about detaching themselves from their emotions so that they may be accepted among the “normal” ? Or the under-emotional?
What,you may ask, is this lady talking about?! LOL Ok…I know it sounds very gloomy and all but really it is not and I am not being pessimistic at all! If anything I am being philosophical. This world is made up of many different types of beings….we have the overly emotional, the average emotional, the under emotional, and then of course the VOID of emotion! These are just naming the emotional character traits, we know there are so many more character traits out there…….Jeesh! It does take a lot of different types to make this world go round! Even though it takes many to make this beautiful world go round….my passions and emotions seem to catch people off guard!
I ask myself “WHY”? why is it that people have a hard time with my passion and emotions? Want an example? Ok…..let us say that God throws a person in my life, complete serendipity as to the way we meet and the way we can help each other! I mean…there is an obvious purpose here, for this meeting. So…we help each other, but her helping me is not so obvious, at this point it is more about me helping her and she is happy to take my encouragement and my passion for helping her, she is happy to use me to the best of her ability at this point because, quite frankly, before I came along she was falling apart fast with no life line in sight! So…I do what I do, I help, I encourage, I talk…..we are friends, fast. At some point she is done with me and apparently my energy and passion overwhelms her…but I am the same person who she met and was happy to call on…a lot! I have not changed but she cannot take my passion any longer. Nevertheless, for me, this is a friendship and I am not prepared for the shift in relationship and it always hurts when it happens.
The above example is not a new situation for me, I have been here before. People have no problem using my passion and energy to their benefit and when the problem is solved I become an irritant. Problem here is that this is who I am…I am passionate and I have tons of energy for helping others……..so I have come to the conclusion that having this energy and these passions and emotions really is not a good thing. It is a problem. I have learned and am still learning to control my emotions and passions so that people do not catch on to the depth of them! Eventually I scare people off, unless they can harness my passion and solve their problems. Then, after their problems are solved or they have found other, more controlled people to “take it from here” I get kicked to the curb to await the next catastrophe in their lives when…you guessed it…. I get the call!
So…are deep emotions..passions and convictions a good thing? I am still left wondering………





I am not going to say much here….on this subject. But may I say that this is messing with my Bliss? I do not watch the news…hey if I did my bliss would be a lot harder to find or keep once found ! So, I do not watch the news but I do look at my Yahoo page and if I see something interesting I will investigate. I understand being concerned about the government telling us we cannot pray….but I see no evidence that that has happened.